Ghastly Guilt

Wake up in the morning and the feelings persist

You may try to run away but you cannot resist

You did not study yesterday and that’s the gist

And the reason you feel gloomy is ‘cause of your guilt.

You got caught up in the tasks of no benefit

You yearned to stop but failed to do it

Now you try to reason and yourself permit

The ravage and raze of your ghastly guilt.

There’s a world out the with a million evils

Fraught with envy, diabolical deeds

A tiring task to focus on the needs

Revolting roads that feed your greed.

Direct your will to duties that matter

Decipher tasks to which you must cater

Dire may you feel but don’t you falter

Don’t let procrastination serve as a shelter.

The world around us is a pleasing place

You must try to abstain from disgrace

With a will for victory n’ courage for the chase

Let us grasp the sweet taste of our grand fate.

aaa...hmmm...well..yeah..i got nothing..........

I am happy I am sad, feeling crazy, I am mad

I got scoldings from my dad, I’m jumpin’ over my bed!

I wanna cry a river today, eat an ice-cream sundae

Dance around in the rain, lock myself and sob in pain!

It’s a delight with no dead end, an agony I can’t mend

If this is my life’s trend NIMHANS is around the bend!

Sometimes love is in the air, at times it aint so fair

These thoughts that I share, I aint so sure, would you care?

Why do I get so close? When it ends I can’t let loose!

Should I walk in their shoes? Why’s it me of all the fools?

Why don’t people understand, emotions tend to change

When will people comprehend, true friendship never ends.

Saying sorry is so sad, am I really that bad?

Please don’t complain to my dad, if he finds out I am dead!

Do I live in misery? My guilt is haunting me

Or have fun at the beach? Throw sadness out of my reach!

Abrupt ending…I know…all these sudden thoughts stopped suddenly…I dunno why…u kno…like boom gone! so now that’s the power of meditation!!

Na, I guess I was just too sleepy…I get these weird ideas on some weird days!! This was definitely one such day!!

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TRUST

The English paper of the first preparatory board exams says the suffering is the only right way to repent for our actions. The only right way is to greet the trouble with the words "Welcome! friend! What message have you brought for me from heaven?" So here I am apologizing to people for whom I have not held up my promises. Yes, I have committed a mistake and I am sorry.

The 'T' says Tell me your most profound apprehensions.

The 'R' says Remember that I am always there for you.

The 'U' says United we stand, divided we fall.

The 'S' says Stay with me through thick and thin.

The 'T' says Together for ever.

Trust is that same feeling you get every morning when you wake up and know for a fact that you can count on a special person in your life to be there for you when you are down for the count in life, or be with you to party late at night for your huge accomplishments. It is that feeling of security you feel when you are aware that people around you believe in you and are ready to stand by you. Trust is a wonderful feeling to experience and a heavy obligation to fulfill in the lives of men. It lets you lead your life in prospects of an enchanting future.

Such is the magnanimity of this elegantly assembled assembly of letters, that there seems to exist no substitute to even remotely endow a man with as much poise and conviction as trust. We are all probably aware of the meaning it holds in one's life. But the intention of this post is not so much about the definition of trust as is on the consequences of losing a confidant's trust.

I have been there, and done that, even if it was very recently, and it has shaken and stirred my life upside down, inside out, round about and any haphazard manner possibly imaginable. I am dejected depressed desperate demoralized disaster-struck and any other word which may seem an appropriate synonym of sad and deadly angry on my illogical unfuturistic mindless actions.

This is a song I came up to express myself in as free a language my mind could gather.

I dunno what I am writing

So all this comes from within

I don’t ask you to trust me

Coz trust me, I am not trust-worthy

I break people’s trust in me

I betray! I cheat heartlessly

I should have no friends

I flout friendship’s trends

When I am all alone

I think about the days gone

I can’t help but cry

Like I am doing now without knowing why

My emotions are fake

I laugh for laughter’s sake

When I say sorry

I mean it, but like many ppl I kno, you also don’t worry

I am going crazy

The world looks so hazy

Hazy rhymes with Stacy

I don’t know Stacy ppl, stop teasing me!

Why are you still reading this song?

I am never right! I’m always wrong!

I don’t like my friends

If you are one, run away this instant

Einstein and me are the same

Nobody understood him and even me, what a crime!

When I say I love you, some ppl laugh, some cry

The world is so stupid, to understand pls don’t try

I am not a joker

don’t see me and laugh

if my feelings become faker,

ill die due to excessive cough

the next line is a chorus, all sing wid me

DON’T YOU DARE EVER BE FRIEND WID ME

DON’T YOU DARE EVER BE FRIEND WID ME

Don’t treasure me in your heart

It has only four chambers you see

To get some fresh air or just to fart

Its too small for me

If you have read till here

You are as crazy as me

Don’t stop talking to me just because I told this dear

No one has ever understood me!!!

-Sujith a.k.a the untrustworthy unfriendshipworthy loser of the millennium!!

I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SORRRRRYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

The doctor goes down.

Prerequisites:

The Destined Downfall

The malevolence of the mind

The true test of humanity, they say is to assist a person who can do you absolutely no benefit. The doctor's work would revolutionalise the contemplative faculties of the inexplicable thought processes of the human mind. Humanity, as we know of it at present, would be radically altered. Man would never stand up to comfort his counterpart ever again. He would be metamorphosised into a blood-sucking leech, a soul living only to drain vulnerable lives. His quest for immortality would be fulfilled. He would reach the highest echelons of power, only aspired by the base, weak, coward creatures of the present. The ramifications of this neo-scientific breakthrough, one with the power to immortalize the soul, was earth-shattering. The doctor realized this, but only a moment too late. He felt an excruciating wave of throbbing rising through his dilapidated body-dilapidated by age and wisdom-and he collapsed...and with him collapsed any prospects of fortification man had in his favor, and yet man remained blissfully ignorant of his impending doom.

Were I a man of tranquility and unruffled composure, I would have negotiated with the doctor in terms of material wealth he aspired to obtain in return for this staggering invention. Were I my former weak humane self, the doctor would be alive now. Were I a man with any trace of solicitousness I would give a thought to let a man die in all his glories that he deserved. But now he lay bare and motionless on the floor, at my feet, still traumatized, agony and despair lurking in his stunned eyes, his face pale with horror, blood-red cold blood-gushing with freedom from its imprisonment in the old man's body. In a moment it would all be over. He had served his part to the world. He would be received well in heaven, but of this I was not sure, for the monstrosities his invention was about to unveil on the world was deadly. And he closed eyes his eyes.

I was now a man with immortality. And there was the congregation of noble mortal men. Who would gain ultimate victory was anybody's guess.

Floating in those fleeting moments of my past.

The reminiscence of one's past can bring to mind a torrent of emotions, mostly related to nostalgia, more often also related to rapture or to despair. Here are some moments I have treasured and will do so for the rest of my life.

A wonderful world, the most enigmatic days of my life, appreciable beyond the power of words to express. The thought of Dakshayini Ma'am's affection still brings the feeling of warmth to my heart.

This snap brings to mind unprecedented storehouse of memories. Elaborating those priceless emotions would take up all of my time. I dedicate other posts for this very pic.

And then I grew. Its just too sad I have no more pictures of higher primary.

I started going to parties!

I began following philosophy and tried to become one with the universal mind.

And wondered at the beauty of the stars.

I also tried a little bit of martial arts.

Argued a lot with "Samrat"

There is more than what meets the eye, we never fought so badly.

Yes I did study occasionally

Then came the board exams...after that we all lost our sense of reality.

Return to the world of prose

Hello everyone, this is me, Sujith, your once trusted philosopher-turned poet, making his come-back to the alluring world of prose and its phenomenal power to affect the lives of men. This is not the Sujith you knew before, he is gone behind the curtains of time forever, he has changed, he has transformed, he has evolved and turned over a new leaf(yes, they all mean the same).

Why the sudden resolution to return to prose after an enchanting journey through the mystical world of poetry? The answer lies in the question! Please find it and let me know.

As of now, I have not much to convey to my audience. I promise to keep my statements short and comprehensible to facilitate easy interpretation to many a man who, in terms of his proficiency in construing the depths of my "odd" proclamations, resembles no more than a boy reading the scriptures and hoping to understand the intricacies that lie between the lines in the wisdom passed down the ages to lead man to his ultimate enlightenment through the promise of becoming one with the universal mind.Ahh whom am I kidding, I never write short statements!And yeah, I was boasting so don't budge it!

I would like to hear from my audience themselves on what matters they would like me to apply my mind to and explain the details in a style like no other. So this was a little piece of re-introduction, I will continue in a short while..........

When tomorrow starts without me

When tomorrow starts without me

The ocean of life is often an outrage.

Our vessel’s destiny depends on fate.

I should have lived the life, not its mirage,

When tomorrow starts without me you’ll see my carnage

Oh! We’ve been together through the tide of times,

When the going’s gruff we made up our minds,

Those lighter moments have lit up our lives,

When tomorrow starts without me, will you cry?

The bond we shared I cannot replace.

Leaving you alone is such a disgrace,

I endeavored not to, but I am helpless.

When tomorrow starts without me, hope you find solace.

All the thoughts, I could never convey,

You never knew, you never may,

One can never say if my memories stay,

When tomorrow starts without me, I hope you pray!

Undue notions about me are to be rectified,

Your trust in me is to be verified,

Lot many complications are to be simplified,

When tomorrow starts without me, you are to be satisfied.

Don’t’ take me away, I don’t wanna leave,

I wanna furnish proof for everything I believe,

Wanna get back at those who did deceive,

When tomorrow starts without me, I still wanna live.

I’ll miss the time when my friend was you,

My guide was you, advocate was you,

My money, my life and my dream was you,

When tomorrow starts without me, remember I love you!