Feeling low...

Deserted

In the deserted alleys

I wander about without a trace

The darkness around hides my disgrace

My life has lost a trace of solace.

 

My life is a night without a light

I am not free I’m held so tight

There’s no sun which used to burn

Where’s the angel to whom I could turn?

 

Will you help me to find the light?

Through thick and thin will you hold me tight?

My negativity, will you burn?

Be the angel to whom I can turn?

 

Cannot find the difference between

The day or night which I have seen

Cannot find the difference between

Heaven or hell where I have not yet been

 

Like the virus which invades

Our body and then pervades,

I feel the desperation thrive

To get rid of it I must strive

 

Life has never been so dreadful yet

About the past I do regret

I muse about the things that are gone

All these things must I face alone?

In the deserted alleys

I wander about without a trace

The darkness around hides my disgrace

My life has lost a trace of solace.

 

Oh when? Oh when will I find success?

Should I strive for it or face duress?

Can you help me in this quest?

I need a shoulder where I can rest.

 

A shoulder of a friend so true

A friend so true, a friend like you.

A friend to guide me when I am wrong

To lift me up and make me strong

 

I am searching for a goal renewed

In these streets that look so new

When will I find a friend like you?

And will the friend be just as true?

 

I wonder about the things that are not

I am not deserted, or so I thought

My life I will not waste today

I will scream out to the world “HURRAY!”

Dedicated to I Prep. Math paper

One Big Fall

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

 

Our Math paper was not easy

If you say it was you're funny

3 was 6 and 6 was 3

Time ran out like money

Root 65 I don't know why

Looked so uncanny

  

10 minutes is all I had when I realized

That the questions were so many

Couldn't write a thing or think anything right

My eyes were all so shiny

I was lost in sorrow, didn’t wish good morrow'

Although the weather was sunny

 

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

 

I didn't cry as I was a boy

Who could change my own destiny!

Let the paper be oh so tricky

Or so damn lengthy

80 on 80 is what I'll get

Next time, I guarantee!!

 

I'll strive so hard, then pray to the Lord

To get me a century

Silly mistakes will not find a place

In my paper, you see

I'll write so fast that time will cry

"Hey you wait for me!"

Now I rise with all my strength

Still singing a symphony

I'm ready for the fight

And all I want is just one possibility!!

 

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

No misunderstanding please!!

Reconciliation

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

 

My life is larger than mutiny

I have planned my own destiny

 

People feel I have invisible traits

For that I object very straight

 

I express my love for souls and memories

People should understand the terminologies

 

Ever did I say that I love a girl?

Never would I think of that trouble

 

ICSE is a heck of a job

And my friends form a hectic mob

 

The only thing that runs on my mind

Is the value of an angle of a ratio called sine

 

Love is what everyone feels

From their dad and their mom and a lovely sis

 

Beyond that I have no clue

I never stick to it even if there’s glue

 

Hey wait up I still have a chance!

My Sanskrit teacher loves me in the class!

 

If you call that “commitment”

I would say you are like cement!

 

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

 

And if by chance they turn out to be wrong

I will stop singing this song!!

 

And still if you say I need not pretend

This song you could never comprehend!

 

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

A song for her MEMORY!!

A bond that never was.

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

Your beauty was never to be compared

Your feelings for me, were floating in the air

You held me tight and showed that you cared

Yet the emotions I could not share

I was caught in a snare, I could not bear!

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

In your eyes, the sparkle glowed

You gently touched and clearly showed

Something inside me really moved

Was it my belly or the love I had for you!?

 

Without you my day wouldn’t proceed

In my actions I could never succeed

For the cause of this my mind did heed

Why? Did I cede? Or really need?

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

For the rest you may always shine

But I cannot ask if you are fine

I loved you when I was only nine

Although you were just a friend of mine.

Or was the friendship just a reason

In the auburn autumn season?

Was I the one you had chosen?

To watch me watch your cheeks rosen?

 

I felt I had to wait and reckon

That’s where I was mistaken

I knew I had lots of time to spare

But realized that God never did care

He had plans for me and my burdened heart

For here she was and then was lost

 

In that moment my heart did break!

I cried and cried till my world did shake!

Why did I not tell her earlier

But knew that now it did not matter

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Your memories stay with me

With the feeling of ecstasy

My thoughts roam around the sea

Searching for traces of you and me.

Yet I know that you still love me!

Yet I know that you still love me!

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.