Feeling low...

Deserted

In the deserted alleys

I wander about without a trace

The darkness around hides my disgrace

My life has lost a trace of solace.

 

My life is a night without a light

I am not free I’m held so tight

There’s no sun which used to burn

Where’s the angel to whom I could turn?

 

Will you help me to find the light?

Through thick and thin will you hold me tight?

My negativity, will you burn?

Be the angel to whom I can turn?

 

Cannot find the difference between

The day or night which I have seen

Cannot find the difference between

Heaven or hell where I have not yet been

 

Like the virus which invades

Our body and then pervades,

I feel the desperation thrive

To get rid of it I must strive

 

Life has never been so dreadful yet

About the past I do regret

I muse about the things that are gone

All these things must I face alone?

In the deserted alleys

I wander about without a trace

The darkness around hides my disgrace

My life has lost a trace of solace.

 

Oh when? Oh when will I find success?

Should I strive for it or face duress?

Can you help me in this quest?

I need a shoulder where I can rest.

 

A shoulder of a friend so true

A friend so true, a friend like you.

A friend to guide me when I am wrong

To lift me up and make me strong

 

I am searching for a goal renewed

In these streets that look so new

When will I find a friend like you?

And will the friend be just as true?

 

I wonder about the things that are not

I am not deserted, or so I thought

My life I will not waste today

I will scream out to the world “HURRAY!”

Dedicated to I Prep. Math paper

One Big Fall

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

 

Our Math paper was not easy

If you say it was you're funny

3 was 6 and 6 was 3

Time ran out like money

Root 65 I don't know why

Looked so uncanny

  

10 minutes is all I had when I realized

That the questions were so many

Couldn't write a thing or think anything right

My eyes were all so shiny

I was lost in sorrow, didn’t wish good morrow'

Although the weather was sunny

 

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

 

I didn't cry as I was a boy

Who could change my own destiny!

Let the paper be oh so tricky

Or so damn lengthy

80 on 80 is what I'll get

Next time, I guarantee!!

 

I'll strive so hard, then pray to the Lord

To get me a century

Silly mistakes will not find a place

In my paper, you see

I'll write so fast that time will cry

"Hey you wait for me!"

Now I rise with all my strength

Still singing a symphony

I'm ready for the fight

And all I want is just one possibility!!

 

One big fall is all it takes

To sing a symphony

To get back up I am ready to fight

The greatest mutiny

No misunderstanding please!!

Reconciliation

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

 

My life is larger than mutiny

I have planned my own destiny

 

People feel I have invisible traits

For that I object very straight

 

I express my love for souls and memories

People should understand the terminologies

 

Ever did I say that I love a girl?

Never would I think of that trouble

 

ICSE is a heck of a job

And my friends form a hectic mob

 

The only thing that runs on my mind

Is the value of an angle of a ratio called sine

 

Love is what everyone feels

From their dad and their mom and a lovely sis

 

Beyond that I have no clue

I never stick to it even if there’s glue

 

Hey wait up I still have a chance!

My Sanskrit teacher loves me in the class!

 

If you call that “commitment”

I would say you are like cement!

 

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

 

And if by chance they turn out to be wrong

I will stop singing this song!!

 

And still if you say I need not pretend

This song you could never comprehend!

 

This would be a soulful song

Of those thoughts from my soul that can never be wrong

A song for her MEMORY!!

A bond that never was.

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

Your beauty was never to be compared

Your feelings for me, were floating in the air

You held me tight and showed that you cared

Yet the emotions I could not share

I was caught in a snare, I could not bear!

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

In your eyes, the sparkle glowed

You gently touched and clearly showed

Something inside me really moved

Was it my belly or the love I had for you!?

 

Without you my day wouldn’t proceed

In my actions I could never succeed

For the cause of this my mind did heed

Why? Did I cede? Or really need?

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

For the rest you may always shine

But I cannot ask if you are fine

I loved you when I was only nine

Although you were just a friend of mine.

Or was the friendship just a reason

In the auburn autumn season?

Was I the one you had chosen?

To watch me watch your cheeks rosen?

 

I felt I had to wait and reckon

That’s where I was mistaken

I knew I had lots of time to spare

But realized that God never did care

He had plans for me and my burdened heart

For here she was and then was lost

 

In that moment my heart did break!

I cried and cried till my world did shake!

Why did I not tell her earlier

But knew that now it did not matter

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Your memories stay with me

With the feeling of ecstasy

My thoughts roam around the sea

Searching for traces of you and me.

Yet I know that you still love me!

Yet I know that you still love me!

 

Your memories seem to fly

You were so shy and so was I

You told me not to lie, but be alive

Even though not to cry, I always try

The past soon comes haunting by!

The past soon comes haunting by!

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

 

Never thought I would be singing a song

Never thought I would fall so deep in love

Never thought that it could possibly be you

Never thought you would steal my lonely heart.

A song for farewell party-10th std

Here's the second song...

FAREWELL

We entered this sanctuary 13 years ago-crying,
And now today, we leave this heaven
Some crying, some depressed, while other’s heart-broken
And ironically-the feelings of the past contradict the present ones to the world’s limits.
If we cried then for our mother’s love
Now we cry for an everlasting friendship
Then it was a cry for help
Now it’s a cry for harmony.
The only thing common between then and now-
WE BID FAREWELL!!

This would be a FAREWELL
A FAREWELL that will last
A FAREWELL oh so pure
That an impact it will cast!

I entered this world fearing the unknown
You took me by hand made me feel at home
You taught me to bid FAREWELL to my fear
You taught me to say GOOD BYE to my terror.

You taught me the things I could never forget
I learnt not to do the things I regret.
A was for Apple and B was for Ball
I ran to my ma'am as I heard her call.

This would be a FAREWELL
A FAREWELL that will last
A FAREWELL so damn needed
From the bottom of my heart!

Then came the people whom I called friends
They showed me life in its various blends
I laughed with some, with some I cried
The rest I teased and never did mind.

The subjects did proceed
As the “management” planned
We did grow closer
‘N pledged our friendly hand

This would be a FAREWELL
A FAREWELL that will last
A FAREWELL for all those friends
Everlasting in their hearts!

We realized that our teacher had dreams
For every child even when she screams
In our hearts we knew that she always loved
And when we saw her we always bowed.

Time flew by I know not why
I was once a baby and now a boy
The bonds with my friends felt so secure
Now seem to end and I can’t endure!

Would this be a FAREWELL??
Should a FAREWELL be the last?
Should a FAREWELL break our bonds
And leave us so aghast?
Is it fair for a FAREWELL
To drown us in our past?

And yet in all insanity we bid you a FAREWELL
A FAREWELL to the teachers
A FAREWELL to our school
A FAREWELL to everyone who in our lives did rule.

This would be a FAREWELL
A FAREWELL that will last
A FAREWELL oh so pure
That an impact it will cast!

WE BID FAREWELL!!

Heartfelt lyrics

My latest interest-WRITING SONGS!!
Here's the first one


A TRIBUTE
Apocalypse of the world
The animosity in my mind
The anger in my heart
And the anguish in my soul.

I stood in the shadows on a shady night
Reclaiming my vanity(YEAH!)
And lost in insanity (AARGH!)

Under the gravity of the forces,
That burns within my mind.(YEAH!)
That burns within my mind. (AARGH!)

I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS! (THAT’S ME!)

I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!(THAT’S ME!)

The kids in the meadows,
See the sun rise (WOW!)
Enjoy the pure breezes
And hike on the hill sides (AHEM)

We are locked up, despondent
For a waft of fresh air (DAMN!)
A splash in the river
Or a trip to the fair. (THAT'S SAD)

I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!(THAT’S ME!)

I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!
I AM AWFULLY JEALOUS!(THAT’S ME!)

In the diversity of nature
Am I any special?
I follow a dress code
And my daily routine
I awake to the four walls
And slumber into it.

I wanna leave a mark on nature
On the sands of time
Attain great heights
And look along to say
I was once down there,
Way deep (DEEP DEEp DEep Deep deep)down there.

HUH? What’s this? I JUST REALIZE!
Education is the craft that will lead me to my end!

EDUCATION-so golden!
So precious and so pure
We start from scratch to reach the top
No itch that can't be scratched.

Do the teens down the streets know
Why the world goes blur at night?
Why does the tubelight glow so bright?
Or how the sun produces light?

Yes! I JUST REALISE!
YES! I JUST REALISE!

What gives morals to the world,
What makes us wonder how
The iPod with the rich kid works!
Why the earth spins round and round
The pollution chokes our sound
The pleasure of mythology
Delicacies in zoology
Bafflement in geometry
And its wonderful symmetry.

Yes! I JUST REALISE!
YES! I JUST REALISE!

A TRIUTE TO THE TEACHERS! (EXACTLY)
A TRIBUTE TO OUR SCHOOL! (YEAH)
A TRIBUTE TO ALL THOSE
WHO MADE US WHOLE!!(WHOLE!!)

PHILOSOPHY Let Loose

In the modern world, men, every so often beguiled by avaricious panorama, are disposed towards malicious dogfights and catastrophic skirmishes.Disposition of individuals nay myriad of vulnerable souls, submerged under this encumbrance is a wry, inevitable end.WHY?Why this pain?Why this destruction?Why the spite?O Lord Buddha, where are you?
ANSWER:-Right underneath the cruel manifestation of evil, i.e. deeper in ourselves, muffled by the ire of the idle mind, i.e. just a mile further when shattered by fatigue, i.e. in true PHILOSOPHY.

Philosophy, the laws of life, is the erudition of the ethics of life and moral conduct of a singular individual in the ocean of infinite varieties of nature's ever-flamboyant, knotty fabrication.Then who is a philosopher?Unambigously, a follower of philosophy(obviously).
Apparently, philosophy seems, as per the general perception, the ritual of the old and wizened. In reality, though, experience has little to do with being philosophical.A common misconception of spirituality and philosophy being inter-related seems most startling to the minds of the PHILOSOPHICALLY ENLIGHTENED.Philosophy being a string of baseless logic seems absolutely absurd and ridiculously unfathomable by any expanse of knowledge.Where else can one's soul be as satiated as when one hears the sacred "Subhashitha"s of the Philosophy-laden, mother language-Sanskrit.

सर्वे भवन्तु सुखिनः, सर्वे सन्तु निरामयाः
सर्वे भद्राणि पश्यन्तु माँ कश्चिद् दुह्ख्माप्नुयात

Besides enjoying youth playfully, I believe PHILOSOPHY is the only retreat to find bliss in one's life.Following stern philosophies such as ahimsa(Physical as well as Psychological) may seem(and actually are) easier read than followed with dedication and constant effort.In any case, what pleasure does, or rather should one procure by seeing their fellowbeings in pain and suffering?

Yes, PHILOSOPHY is the Ultimate, and I, in solitude, vow to spread and influence people around me to follow the most required philosophies...hope others will follow, if not mine, examples of greater personalities, who have left their marks in the sands of time...THINK!

(Like many others this too, as I intend, will be a monthly edition)

The Nauseating Demeanour

There should exist in this world, among men, no class differentiation, no ranks, no castes, no religion.Like everyone, I am in total agreement with the notion.It is only when people reach the limits of this conception, that they elude from the norms of humanity to indulge into unelucidatable deeds bringing shame to their intimate fellow beings and the society to which they closely associate themselves and cause them to hang their heads in utmost ignominy, humiliation beyond the power of words to express.

Hence moving away from the popular notion, there always exists two sets of people in practicality-The Distinguished and The Discreditable.Although it depends on the observer as to whom he considers as belonging to which cluster, there happens to be certain underlying structural standards, not complying to which, the observed inevitably forces himself into the latter congress.

These lost souls seem to have been shrouded under the veil of the unreal, the seemingly famous, the seemingly expected, the in-reality base inhuman conduct.They seem to derive pleasure of the suffering of their companions, of the unacquainted and even people of their own class, like vampires, having lost their shadows, live on life of innocent humans, incourse of time leading to their own downfall by the righteous and the imposing persona of the charismatics.

The time of the psychological passing over from boyhood to manhood is a movable feast. The legal date fixed on the twenty-first birthday has little or no connection with it. There are men in their teens, and there are boys in their forties.Yes, but all men are not raucous and disruptive, nor are all boys the innocent angels of the era.The genial smiles of the disgraceful portion of boys can hold the evil demon, burning with negative thoughts unfathombale by the fragile minds of the dignified.The culture displayed by their countenance often has no relation to their misguided souls bodies and minds as my friends and I recently discovered and discovered it to find ourselves as the victims of such unparliamentary behaviour which disturbed our ignorant blissful minds...or in fact was it parliamentary behaviour??

And then there is the other category of misguided souls, who impetuosly trust their hearts out for every infatuation and end up in the dark corners of deserted alleys, heart-broken and lost in (what they consider as) unrecoverable depression.Fine, go ahead, die with depression, like I care??Why should I bother about people who never seem to be worried about anyone except their own selfish eccentric souls, if not for my principles of general wellbeing and satisfaction for all??OK...now this upsets me to the utmost-You wake up one morning unaware of what the deadly conspiracies the night has had on your part to be informed that you have been held responsible for having lost your heart to a person whom you consider a true friend and nothing more??Is this a necessary end to all friendships??LOVE...a substance so pure, a feeling so inexplicable...yet often considered most common...NO its not common, its special, its unique...as pure as the.....well it has no comparison!!And yeah I firmly believe there is no match to the love of a Mother, the security offered by a Father, the pure affection and trust of a sister and LOYALTY of a FRIEND....as far as crushes and any other love is in consideration, I have no clue about it...

And i do this very rarely "PLEASE lord, save me from this horrible world!!"

Back to the BODHI...Part 2

Yeah, feels great to be back on track....after the world destruction, its now time to give to the world sumthing to chew in its minds for a while....here it goes... Why is there so much misery in the world??
Why do friends sometimes betray??
Why do friends hurt each other??
Is there anything more pure than the love of a mother??
If God is so unpartial, why did he make man the supreme commander of earth??

What should be the ultimate aim of a pure friendship??

Which do you prefer??Spirituality or Philosophy??

Can philosophy give you the essence of a beautiful life??

Can spirituality offer a solution to everything??
Once again, am I crazzy??

Until next time....

The malevolence of the mind

Destined Downfall continued.....

The nether world seemed to favour my scheme of world destruction. The evil, exasperation and desparate crave of destruction and demolition lurking in the depths of the essence of my being, supressed for a decade under the stalwart might of the holy influence cast upon my enduring body by the charisma and uprightness of the clergy of Minova Church and the divine inspiration of Jesus, had resurfaced, errupting through the barriers of sanity and stability, disregardin all norms of science, philosophy and spirituality.

Hundreds of miles away, lay a village, a person who could spot a trace of life in this spooky erie "village" would be awarded the highest recognition of the land...BUT...underground, way deep underground, was an organisation, a commemoration of the most noble souls of the mortal world, a secret society dedicated to solemn vow to make the world as innocuous of evil and danger as possible.They could sense, due to the strength of my envy, through their complex systems the prognostication of the untold misery about to haunt the world.

It was about to begin, the battle of the millenium, both the armies prepared to shed blood in the most bloody confrontation the world, so unaware and blissfully ignorant of its own future, would hardly catch a glimpse of before being destroyed.Yes, the world will be destroyed, I was convinced!!MUHAAHAHAHA!!......

Nostalgic Moments...

The euphoric beams of bubbling excitement, that encompasses humans at every instance, down the memory lane, is inimitable and priceless, if for nothing but the pure pleasure of a multitude of emotions overwhelming the heart, overflowing into a stream of reminiscence of those extraordinarily cherished, haunted or seemingly not-so-unique affairs that have moulded our physical, philosophical, psychological and ethical behaviour and characteristics to its present stature.

The memory lane of a majority of commons generally enlists the moments of utmost delight- either proclaimed to every rustic along the way or utilized to rise life to enormous undiscovered heights-and also the unbearable torture-endured with daring courage, with a heart brimfull of bravery and valour or bottled up with audacious ignorance and concealed cowardice- consuming the conscience from the inside.

Of the most cherished moments, rushing in my mind, there have been events, events that will be locked up, hidden and concealed even from my soul and guilt, and on the contrary there have been moments or rather unforgettable pleasures and delights of FRIENDSHIP, SECURITY, BROTHERLY LOVE, CARE, CONCERN, FUN, ENJOYMENT, INNOCENCE and PURITY.I would like to share(if you would like to read) the latter moments of life!If you haven't guessed it already, I am writing this post about HIGHER PRIMARY!!

Ahh those were the days, irreplaceable by any extent of joy.Now I am in high school-a dirty, stinking, a hellish place, in comparision to the grandeur and stumptuousness of the majestic kingdom of the golden world called Primary.

Friendship, the word for life, was defined as the bond between the souls, the connection of minds, love between hearts and the clossness between physical bodies!A warm smile from a friend would make one's day.Friends were friends...not just in name and but for life, not to engulf our happiness but to share our grieves, not for personal causes but for the noble cause of friendship itself!A call from a friend would last for hours on end, speaking of everything, no bar for sensitivity of matters, until the heart had been contented of sharing everything it had camouflaged under the mask of happiness and the mind refreshed with stomach-aching comedy and laughter.The unobstructed freedom of speech between friends of the two genders would strengthen and serve to enforce social mobility and reinforce the morals of the long lost traditions of brotherly love and affection for one and all...unbiased of anything!The occasional fights would in fact strengthen the friendship as the people concerned would delve deeper into the roots of each other's qualities.Ragging between friends was unknown and unheard of, no doubt friends would tease each other...come on why else are friends called friends!Yes, friends would tease, but not for the price of intimacy between them, not when one needed the support of a friend the most, not to laugh at them, not to display themselves superior, not to prove the friend eccentric...just to encourage the ULTIMATE OATH OF FRIENDSHIP, just to say that they will always stay by their friend's side no matter what...even when they themselves are teasing the friend!The most righteous thought "A friend in need is a friend indeed" was the word of the mouth!!And now-in highschool, its a different story altogether to say the least...

Ahh, the rain pours cats and dogs as I immerse myself into the depths of nostalgia.The thunders that accompany the showers remind me of the exceptionally brilliant guides we had in primary-unmatched and unprecedented. Not that the teachers in high school are any the less efficient, just that they don't appeal to our aspirations and desire for affection to the extent of the primary teachers.

Coming to the studies point of view, its a different world altogether.Its kind of like you move into a deserted barren land after travelling through the dense ever-green, impenetrable jungle(well not quite, but still...). Not much of a difference in the curricular activities too, maybe its just the fact that ICSE is cool, no matter at what level!

I, move ahead in the journey of life, ignorant of what the future holds in stall for me, bravely, with a heart full of emotions, and the mind filled with excitement of the unknown.As the rain showers its incessant blessings on me, the thunder and the lightning always present to show me the way, I move on, with this load of the heavy heart, always aware of the fact that no matter where I go, or what I do, I always have the support of my friends, teachers and all the confidants who share a portion of my heart!And as the sun goes does in the crimson passions of rest and relaxation, I get along with life reading adventure stories and haunted books, in the dreaded evening of this day!!

Sunny side up!

The ever-so-refreshing and vivacious energy laden in the very structure and composition of rising and the setting blushing fiery ball of gases, the golden sanctuary of pure wisdom and vigour, bears an inexhaustible fascination for the mind, body and spirit of every being composed of the the same five elemental fragments of nature in its innumerable proportions.

I started out this day unaware of the fates that this seemingly normal day would reveal to me, just to taken aback by the reminiscence of the long lost thought:

"That the sky is brighter than the earth means little unless the earth itself is appreciated and enjoyed. Its beauty loved gives the right to aspire to the radiance of the sunrise and the stars."

This thought held limitless meaning to me in my days of fatigue and despair, but why the sudden recollection of such lofty thoughts, I had yet to fully comprehend it myself, for the day promised to be an everlasting cherishable experience...

The faint beam of sunlight, cast through the wooden framework, beside my bed, upon my undescerning busy dreamy eyes, seemed as the Gods, by their pure delight at the playful youth of the morning, yearned to give me the pleasure of enjoying its beauty through the form of my ever smiling, ever genial, sometimes loud guide and confidant-My soul.

I felt an instantaneous jerk in my body on perceiving the crystal clear, accustomed voice of a very familiar person very close to scream, "Sujiiiiiiiiiith, get up, you are late by half an hour."I could feel bolts of chills running down my spine as i realised that I had to attend  school(DARN!School during holidays??GROSS!!)!My dad, a friendly, amiable man, had prepared the bathtub into which he expected me to soak myself, to pamper my insatiated soul(insatiated with sleep).

I could feel the pleasant vibes of the morning energy and a hearty enthusiasm surrounding me. After a leisurely bath, I had the fotrune of witnessing the exquisite splendour of  the auburn rays of the beaming sun, rise through the darkness of the evil dreadful night, destroying with ease, the sogginess of the dank atmosphere of disease and deceitfulness to replace it with the gaily smiles and wafts of pure breeze of the evergreen and everlustrous trees around.

School seemed a dreadful place compared to the natural beauties of nature, and the teachers, guards hindering us from enjoying these simple pleasures.But on compulsion, I attended school, returned home and blogged about negativity, evil and destruction(God alone knows why).

Later that day, something inside me urged for a change from the monotonous, wearisome activities of the day.I went to the house terrace to appreciate natures gifts...That seemed the most righteous thing to do, as I found myself still gazing and still lured...the more i gazed-awestricken-the more I was moved, the velocity of the gliding birds overhead, the calm soothing effect of the pure blue skies, with wafts of clouds looking as the snow sprinkled on a spotless surface, and most of all the vitality of the ardourous sun, enclosed within its wide arms of love and passion for the living, gleaming with comforting rays of warmth took me to a place, filled with the warmth of love and and security of a passionate friendship...I was mesmerised, I was lost, I had no intentions of returning from paradise!Yes, i was in a paradise!

For about half an hour I stood, still wondering about the wonders of nature and its simple miracles...lost in my meditation, I suddenly realised the sun growing deeper and darker, what can be described best as the crimson pal of the evening.A commoner on the street, who seemed to have his headfull of grieves, seemed to be in a confusion of weather to take the next bus or move in an auto. Tom(remember my friend??) described it as the rage of the Gods for the sins of men...I had a view of my own.The crimson sun, descending behind the rosy red tree, laden with beautifully fragrant flowers reminded me of passions, long lost and half forgotten.

Later, the same evening, the chirping of the birds, reminded me of Linkin Park(what the!!??).It was sumthing like :

The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me 

The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me

The sun

I feel the light betray me

The sun

I feel the light betray me

As i started murmuring the extract to myself, two love birds perched right behind me, in the branch of a tree(what luck!),they sang their songs of love and life and all the while i was further moved into unrecoverable heaven!!

And finally it was time, I had to depart and so did the sun. He had o inspire the souls of many more people around the world.I gave him the best salute of my life and with a heart filled with emotions, I gobbled up a huge cheese pizza from pizza hut!!

The Destined Downfall

Hey guys, I'll be coming up with these short snipets, from time to time...just like mini novels of my imagination!!...Enjoy guys!!My life has been a roller coaster of events, partially acquainted to myself and the rest, resting ecstatically in the gory hands of metaphysical spirits, who in their own due course have lauded upon me the limitless extents of despair, doom, despondency and thus the inevitable hopelessness that haunts the very lifeforce on which living beings thrive on the deadly world of horror and humiliation.That being said, one cannot deny the obvious fact of the heights of harmony, bliss, delight and ecstacy my life has witnessed.Of the two, obviously contradictory ideas, the former seems to engulf the vitality and vigour of the latter by an unprecedented extent.

This was my attitude a few years back:

Suj : Yo, dude, have we met before?

Stranger :No

Suj: Never mind, great friends were once strangers.Mind accompanying me to a party next week?

Stranger :I dont know...

Suj : Ahh dont be such a party pooper. I know what, I'll even lend you one of my brilliant ideas to get you dressed like a rock star, you are going to be the the star of the show, what do u say?

Stranger : If you insist...

Suj : Cool! Here is my cell number:1234567890, call me once u get home.

Stranger :Ok 

Suj : Catch ya later dude, chaoo...

Stranger : Bye

And now this is me, the present day Sujith:

Suj : *blank*

Stranger(the same guy) : Man you so rock! You turned me over a new leaf, I owe you one!!

Suj : Good, thank you.

Stranger : Are you in the groove to make some moves, buddy?

Suj : No.

Stranger : Nevermind that, how about hanging out in one of the cool new discos this rocking night??

Suj : Sorry, not really interested.

Stranger : Ahh, don't be such a wet blanket, I still know that you have the groves to make people move to the banging beats of your playful youth!!

Suj : If you say so...

Stranger : Let's get moving before we are 90 shall we??

Suj : 90 is a long span of time for someone so bored as me...

Stranger :Ahh dont tell me you are ready to give up the ghost just yet!!

Suj : I'd rather do that...SOB!

Stranger : (what a freak!!)chaoo!

Yes, I can feel it right under my skin. It is consuming me, tearing me into shreads from within. The hallowness of my delicate heart frightens me. The bloody past, wrought with with fear of the unknown, and the blood freezing vision of the cold, heartless future leaves me shivering under the wrath of the unknowable, deserting my body in its vain crave for protection and the soul, lost in baseless, yet so destructive forces of the evil nature of man and his deeds. The fearful guilt has lost all its meaning and relation to the physical body and I feel the weightlessness, like the same feeling of a man stranded on freely falling body. My heart knows no fear, although it is trembling like the flawless motion of the wings of a honey bee looking for the heavy sugar laden honey, how I long for the return of of the ever-so-sweet honey!

I used to be normal, yes, even if that is now a long forgotten dream...forgotten under the burden of the intolerably painful measure taken by the almighty.But why on me??

I used to have friends, friends whom I could actually rely upon, friends to stick to me thruough thick and thin, friends to share my joys, sorrows, secrets, and much more. Not that I am alone now, but the freinds I have now are empty minded, cold-hearted, vendictive creatures who look down upon me, cursing me, comparing me wretched hearless creature...O the Pain!!

I used to enjoy life's beauties, just as any normal man would, the simple joys of an affectionate smile, the pleasure of feeling the support of a firm shoulder of a friend, the beauty of every relationship!Not any more...

The simple joys of life gradually faded away under the towering might of evil and negativity.I could no longer see the angel in my companions.I crushed every blooming flower and trampled every helpless creature.I set my sights on world destruction.The goal seemed larger than life but I had the courage to endure the consequences.And then it all began...

TO BE CONTINUED..........

Resplendent Rhapsody

Firstly, I would be a petitioner to the effect that any person who firmly believes in the presence of a kind heart in his mortal physical body would pay their homage to a most noble innocent soul, which at this very moment is looking down upon you all and mocking at every living creature, at the hardships they are suffering while it is the midst of eternal bliss!!

Yes, I was referring to BRUNZY. As mentioned, I did return home early, just to be informed of the fact that God's affection for Brunzy had increased manifold through the night and so He borrowed him from me.No, I am not crying guys, neither am I totally distraught with sorrow.On the contrary I rhapsodise for the freedom gained by him, from this physical form, free from all worldly bonds and physical obligations!!

FREEEEEEEDOM!!!!!LIBEEEEERRRRRTYYYYY!!!!!!PEACEEEEEEE!!!!! 

To BRUNZY:Yo dude, wazzup?? :P .....How's the weather there??and yeah, enjoying with the gals??(chill man jus kidding)....man i am in desperate anticipation of ur return...jus inform me of  ur next form dude, ill be der to pik u up...swear!!until next time.....chaaooo!!

Curse the creation!!

If "Hell hath no Fury like a woman's Scorn", "Creation hath no Scorn like SUJITH'S Fury"!

Curse the creation and curse the mindless god damned

  Pandora!RUTHLESS!!MERCILESS!!DISGRACEFUL!!If only I had one,(just one) wish all I would would wish was that DEATH should be attained by all living universal organisms peacefully and without suffering (i.e. if not possibly avoided).

The INTENSELY RAGING VOLCANO OF DESPERATION AND HELPLESSNESS RAVAGING in my being  is probably unfathomable by the delicate mortal brains!If given a chance, I would probably express my anger by screaming my soul out or maybe even destroy the entire world in this fit of rage!But then, I would be going against my purpose of this post by murdering every living being on this selfish, self centered,   cruel, heartless world!!

The cause of my anxiety lies in the suffering of my 20 DAYS OLD FRIEND lieing on the streets, fighting for life, imploring the Gods to protect him by any means. His mother being hopelesslly helpless, has shattered my heart into innumerable bloody partitions which are cying in pain, anguish and misery!

No, its not a helpless street dweller, its my closest buddy, a little puppy, whom I fed 5 hours earlier with this same bare hands (which are now trembling with temper) now lies struggling, screaming out loud for help. The Gods grow envious of too much content anywhere and show their jealousy in an instance..BUT WHY ON A HELPLESS CREATURE WHICH CAN'T EVEN DEFEND ITSELF!!!!!!!!!

I was studying for my computers exams due the next day and chills ran down my spine to hear someone or something groaning in a gripping pain!!I ran out to find myself boundlessly shocked to find my BRUNZY, smeared with blood all over, and looking at me as if to bid me the final goodbye!!A dog from the neighbouring street had attacked this kid, according to the facts I received.

My heart, drowned in sorrow and depression!BRUNZY'S leg was badly damaged, and for a 20 day old guy, that can be fatal!I wanted to run to him and take him to a veterinary doctor, but that idea was strongly put down from my family members saying that his mom might attack me mistaking me for an enemy.But you know what??I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!!My own life is no match for his!!I couldn't(even after repeated tries) succeed in convincing my parents that I will be safe.Well guys guess what, I'll be home early tomorrow and NO MATTER WHAT, I am taking him to a doctor, provided he endures the pain till then!!!!!

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

THE FRUSTRATION!!!!!!!!

Hold on BRUNZY, your pal won't let you down!!!!!!!!!!

Friendship Unleashed!

Back to the BODHI...Part 1

Hey you all, I have lately been engrossed in my thoughts of life, love, friendship etc etc...I am also kinda busy sorting out my life preferences and priorities...so could you guys help me out by way of your coments?I shall be ever grateful(or so i say)...so here it

 goes...

What is the purpose of life??

Is death a neessary end to all mortal creatures on earth??

Where in the world in hell??And where the hell is heaven??

Why do people fear death when evryone knows that death cannot be avoided?(or can it be??)

What is the concept of soul??

What exactly is love??

Why do people FALL in love??

Is friendship the form of love between two minds??

Is love frienship of souls??

Do ghosts exist??

Are all ghosts scary??

Why am I asking all these stuff??

Am I crazzy??

Is evryone on earth crazzy??

                                              

Will be back with more philosophies of life in the next monthly edition of BACK TO THE BODHI!!Until then chew on these questions...